Written this quite long ago.
Just didn't find time to post it.
Maybe that's an excuse:
2007 has passed and a lot has happened (obviously). When I look back at the year that just crawled by, it is very eventful. I still remember the days in the beginning of the year I told myself that I would not drift from God and would stay firm in my faith. However, looking at the current situation, I guess I have to admit my failure in doing so. In the beginning of the year, I was still passionate about church events and stuff. I tried my best to attend every service and choir practice there was. But by the end of the year, things changed. I am quite apathetic to the events of the church. I no longer read the Daily Bread daily, not even weekly or monthly. It slowly fell out of my routine and I only realise it now, sadly. Conclusion: I have drifted from God quite significantly.
I cannot put the whole blame on army life. It's my own laziness and weird obsession in occupying myself with army admin and nonsense stuff that's causing all these.
And it is this obsession that has led me away from my friends as well. I have lost touch with my JC and church friends. I feel very lonely at times, sad and angry at myself for not taking the effort to maintain relationships. It's saddening for me to realise that I get less and less in touch with many of my friends.