I'm currently 3 days away from Brunei. I got my off-in-lieu since Wednesday; stayed at home the whole day. Yesterday, went out with the bitch club members to VivoCity.
Hm, after so long, Joanne and Serene still seem the same. I apologise that I forgot that they have already started university life and the campus they are in. I guess I have lost touch with the outside world. Then they mention to me that I have "no life".
Hah. I guess I wasn't wrong about myself on that.
They asked me why I didn't catch up with the other girls and guys in St Andrew's. I couldn't quite answer that question. I quietened for a while, thinking, wondering how was I suppose to answer them. I just said I was busy. Then the subject changed. So I followed suit. Their question was quite thought provoking. I still can't quite answer it.
chi eng雖然這週在兵營裏的時間還蠻短的，才不過兩天。可是，就連在兩天内，發生了一些不愉快的事。我在帶領我的軍排往伙房吃午餐的時候，如平常一樣，他們不肯好好地齊步走。結果出事了，被rsm捉個正着。他把我和wj罵了一頓后，警告我們如果下次再抓到我們不管好我們的軍排，我們倆和軍排都會被處罰。聼了後，我不僅對我的軍排，也對自己無法控制他們感到失望。
在我面前存在著一個很實在的問題：我必須能夠控制好我的軍排，至少我的軍班要服我，不然我在兵營裏的生活會十分痛苦。我反省自己是否對他們太好了，導致今天他們會爬到我頭上亂跳。我也很懊惱，該以什麽態度對待他們。jj 就建議我以我自己去對待他們，不刻意僞裝自己或扮壞人。可是，我還是不知如何是好。這些事情發生后，我出營時的心情不是很好。也對這次去文萊感到有點擔憂。因爲這次去文萊，我不只要受訓練，我也需要照顧我的軍班。就在這時，jy又告訴我關於他朋友在文萊僅僅10天發生的一些意外。有人在訓練中被樹刺刺到眼睛周圍的部分，流著血走到下一個標杆。我心想，我去文萊訓練不只10天，而是近3個星期。只希望不會發生意外。
我感到欣慰，我在兵營與同事相處很好。他們時不時都會幫我，尤其wj。感謝他常常幫我，在我忙於其他事時，代替我看顧軍排。
本來今天是要和朋友出去的，但他臨時有事，就去不成了。晚上呢，本來是要和lw練習一些詩歌，但他也是臨時有事。整天呆在家裏，很“閑”。這幾天在家裏發呆。又不知道找誰好。
很感謝那些關心我關於前些所寫的文章内容。我知道再埋怨也沒有，正在嘗試往好的方面想。
Although this week in camp was a short one, even unhappy events can happen within this 2 days. I was bringing my platoon to the cookhouse for lunch. As usual, they just refuse to march properly. And it so happen that rsm was looking in our direction. After scolding me and wj, he warned us that if this happened again, both of us will join the platoon in defaulter's(?) parade. At that point of time, I was not only disappointed with my platoon, but also myself for not being able to control my platoon.
I face a very real problem: I have to be able to control my platoon. At least my section has to listen to me. Otherwise, I will have a very hard time in camp. I reflected upon myself, wondering if I have been too nice to them - to the point they don't respect me. I contemplated a lot on how I should face them or treat them. jj suggested that I face them as myself, no putting on of a mask or playing "bad guy". But, I am still not sure. I didn't book out of camp feeling good. At the same time, I am worried about Brunei. Unlike Taiwan, I am there not as a trainee, I have to look after my section as well. jy then told me about his friend who was there for only 10 days and got injured. He was pierced by a thorn around the eye and had to make his way to the next checkpoint bleeding. 10 days and 3 weeks are quite different. I just hope no such thing will happen.
I am happy that I am in good terms with my fellow sect comds. They often help me, especially wj. I am very grateful for his help, especially in taking care of the platoon when I am busy with admin.
I planned to go out with my friend today, but something cropped up. In the night, I was supposed to practice a song with lw, but he also had something on. Stayed at home whole day, very sian. Have been staying at home stoning these few days. Don't know who to find.
Very thankful to all those who approached me about my previous post. I know that complaining won't help anything, and I am trying to be positive.